Life is so Fragile :(

Yesterday I received a sms that my ex-colleague, Mr Ben Tan has passed away due to heart attack. I am shocked and sad to hear the news.

He is a very nice guy. I remember he used to help me when another nasty colleague don't. I will confide to him when I am feeling down. He always add laughter to the group. He used to tell me that it is important to live happily in life and take it easy when meet obstacles.

He is trying to slim down as it will lead to a more healthy lifestyle. He is also taking Chinese Physician Course so that he will be able to help people. Unfortunately, life is unpredictable.

I kept thinking of how he has touched my life. I will always remember that I have such a good colleague.

Rest in Peace, Ben :(

Overstressed

Working for people no longer gives me a great sense of satisfaction.

I can't wait to fulfill my dream - to open my own concept jewellery store.

I want to improve the lives of my family, giving me a chance to bring my whole family for holidays.

I can no longer stand the long wait. Thus I have found the courage to complete a course which I thought would provide me a shortcut to my dream. However I never know that it could bring me so much stress.

I lost my personal life. I lost my sleep. I lost my focus. I started to question myself if this is the right route. If I continue the path, will it have adverse effects on me and my life. Will I be able to overcome the stress or end up in the Mental Hospital?

I felt like giving up but I feel useless like a coward. I felt that I had not done enough. I was overwhelmed with fear. Fear of complexity, fear of failure......

God, please give me strength to go on with life. Pls tell me what to do.