Sunday, September 30, 2007

Vulnerability

You are vulnerable when
1) you are sick
2) you have no family or family that you cannot relate to
3) you have no friends or friends that are physically but not emotionally there

I remember that I nearly fainted a few times when I was young. Yes my mum was with me. Yes my cousin was with me. Many things ran through my mind these days. Maybe because I was not feeling well.

I was feeling dizzy on last Friday but I still went ahead to source for my jewellery supplies. I asked myself what if I fainted on the street and no one would ever care.

Today I went jogging. Maybe I had not been training for some time. After running for about 2km, I felt uncomfortable. Suddenly my vision became blurred. I tried hard to figure my way to cross the road and sat on the step at a HDB flat. After resting, I felt much better and my vision regained. I walked all the way back, acknowledging my failure.

I realised that I had always put up a brave front in the eyes of everyone. I hardly showed my true feelings to anyone. There were times that I felt so tired but I could not show. There were times I felt so alone in the world. There were some time I asked myself where my true friends were. Perhaps blog is the only place where I can truly be myself.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Taxi Fight

No taxi in sight!!! More and more people flagging the cab in front of you!!!!! These are the common problems that we face when trying to get a cab.

This is a "hair-pulling" experience especially when you are rushing for time. 10mins passed. I saw a young lady flagging about 3m away from me. I stared at her furiously. Then I saw her crossing to the opposite street to flag. 5mins later, a middle-aged lady started flagging and got away in a taxi. 10mins passed. Another group of 3 came and flag about 2m away from me. By this time, I am not going to give them a chance ...I walked past them, stood about 5m in front of them and then flagging.

Finally, I managed to get a taxi.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Silence

Sometimes I hope that my mind can stop talking to me at a moment, giving me some peace.


Sometimes I wish that I can eliminate silence. Do you realise that we are lost of words and there is an awkward silence when we meet up with friends that we have not seen for some time?


It hurts when you care but you do not know how to express. Suddenly you are afriad that you will lose the friendship and becomes like strangers. It takes great effort to maintain relationships. If we don't do so, the relationship will become bland.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Imposter

I am a tai tai. I am an entrepreneur. I am an investor. How I wish all these are real. At least I am acting in my dreams...Haha...I enjoyed playing these roles when I visited showflats...

Shhhh......In reality, I am an imposter...in more refined term "mystery shopper" doing competitive checks...or actress-in-training haha....suddenly I am inspired to become a real estate agent...

"Ohhh...I am thinking of converting my new house into a home office...a design studio. Which are the 2-bedroom units left? How much are you selling per sqf?" - Yeah....I am an entreprenuer!!!

"Thanks for showing me around. Let me go back and discuss with my hubby?" - Suddenly I am married hehe....shucks where is the 3-carat diamond ring? Damn...should ask company to sponsor me as prop.

I nearly let the cat out when a property agent walked me out and asked me where I parked my car. Luckily I acted fast and said,"Ohh....my car is sent for maintenance. I took a cab here. " I suddenly think of the movie "Liar Liar"

It is fun!!! I should visit more showflats.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Toe Scare!

Yesterday I nearly lost my toes. Thanks to my colleague. If not, I have to say,"Goodbye, Toes!"

After lunch, my colleagues were going up the escalator to go back to the carpark. We were chatting about the new shoes that they just bought. I was trying to stand sideways to face them. Subconsciously, I leaned one of my foot against the side of the escalator. Suddenly I realised that it was stuck. I was trying to pull out my shoe but couldn't. Thus I told my colleagues. I was wondering why I didn't pull out my foot first.

Luckily one of my colleagues pulled it from the back, saving my toes. What a close shave! We were very near the end of the escalator. Then I turned behind and realised that there was a handsome guy behind us. So embarrassing! I found it more hilarious than feeling scared.

I nearly broke the Singapore's record of first adult's toes being stuck on escalator. Phew!!!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Do you believe in Serendipity?

Today I was sitting in the bus on my way to work when I suddenly thought of this movie "Serendipity". I watched this movie about 6 years ago. I was wondering what Serendipity meant.

Serendipity is an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident or simply good fortune or luck. The story is about two strangers, Jonthan and Sara who meet, love at first sight and play the game of fate.

Sara had written her name and contact no on the first page of the book that she has rented from a bookstore while Jonathan had written his on a note. This started the game of fate where they will plan to unite if they found that particular book and note. In the end, they found it and each other a few years later. Is it fate or just serendipity?

Perhaps serendipity gives you a hope to achieve what is perceived to be impossible. Should I continue to follow my heart and believe in serendipity? Or should I let go and leave in to fate?

Monday, September 3, 2007

I love learning NEW THINGS!

Hmmm....I just realised that I had turned into Ms Grumpy for the past month. I want to become Ms Happy again. I always feel good when I learn new things.

Jewellery making, photography, belly dancing, kickboxing and now writing......so excited......also get to know new friends of all ages.....and now got a chance to learn like an journalist intern...going with instructor's to press conferences or special previews...learning how to conduct interviews and write articles and reviews...After attending the first class, I am already determined to take the advanced classes.

Next items on the learning list: Photoshop, web design, advanced writing and advanced belly dancing.